i confess to You my discontent
and all my angst recount
i confess to grave impatience
anger harbored like a fount
i confess to bitter wailing
as i dig up my own wells
Living Water i disdained
though the stench around me swells
i confess to You my discontent
the many years i squandered
the wasted moments and the nights
away from You i gladly wandered
i confess to pride endemic
and to years of others judging
to the good i’ve left undone
the times i squashed Your gentle nudging
i confess to You my ever-need
a weak that never seems to shrink
the growth of selfishness and pride
and all the sins at which i wink
i confess that i’m still waiting
to be sanctified and free
for the fruit of what You bought me
once for all upon that tree
i confess that i am broken
sad and desperate without You
would Your spirit lead me once again
to what is real and true
i confess You know all this
You’ve heard me say it all before
but i still need to tell You
as i lay here waiting on the floor
i confess to You my discontent
the smallness of my nature
and i bow here now before You
Maker, Lover, Father, Savior
for there’s something else i must confess
it’s Your sufficiency
in all the ways You’ve come beside
and pulled me up from bended knee
i confess i’ve seen Your goodness
in this broken, failing land
i confess i’ve stood in awe
stunned by the movement of Your hand
i confess i’ve felt Your favor
in the days and weeks of life
and Your strong right hand protecting
as i fight through daily strife
so yes i come here now confessing
that i need You every day
believing that You are my help
my strength, my one and only way
to You today i give the glory
bring all i hold with these small fingers
and i breathe deep of truth and goodness
as Your rich grace around me lingers
I enjoy all of your poems Jodi, but I especially like this one. It so describes my own feelings and confessions to our Lord. Your words are so beautifully said to our glorious God. Thank you.