i was wandering so far away
so far away from You
i was angry, i was wrathful
i was yelling for my due
You had hurt me, You had wounded
my small heart and bitterness
rose within my rebel soul
til i gave You the traitor’s kiss
and i ran as far as i could go
flew off the narrow path
and i reveled in my ‘freedom’
and i reveled in my wrath
and each day that passed me by
i held on tighter to the pain
and clung to my self-righteousness
and yelled at You through storm and rain
while the battle raged in silence
each day for my very soul
i conspired with the enemy
while You worked toward the goal
and each day the weight was heavy
and the load i carried grew
for the shame across my shoulders
a rebellion ever new
and You called to me each morning
and You sang to me each night
and i trembled from the pressure
and i cowered from the light
bitter shroud of disappointment
with a heavy dose of sin
i could not keep to that dark road
for i carried You within
You were there each day of screaming
You were with me in those nights
carried You to darkened caves
You sat with me on evil flights
for You promised years before
that You would never ever leave
and though my heart had full betrayed
You’d made a vow to me retrieve
and oh that day, i still can shudder
when i think of it anew
how You brought me to the crossroad
took my hand and led me through
with a final mighty whack
You broke the chains that i’d accepted
took the weight off of my back
of the rebellion i’d erected
led me by that gentle crook
here once again into Your pastures
i could take a full clean breath
and in the peace i fell to raptures
there is nobody, none like You
gentle Friend of sinners lowly
rounding up one at a time
and wrapping us in mercy, wholly
Very Lent-worthy. I do so enjoy your writings. It went to encourage you because nobody else has commented. :)