here’s my problem as i see it
(i don’t pretend there’s only one)
i want the fire down from heaven
see Your face brighter than the sun
i want a moment so terrific
that i’m changed from night to day
i want to feel Your Spirit fall
and have Your Spirit round me stay
i want the light of Your bright face
the one that’d kill me, that’s the one
to shine upon me, scorch me, fry me
change me til i’m like Your Son
i’m tired, you see, of this sin nature
tired of trudging down this road
i’m tired of fighting the same battles
meeting up with enemies old
You’ve won the victory, no one like You
You’re faithful, loving, oh so kind
i know i’ll spend the most there with You
i’m just so tired of my mind
i want a famous, Pascal* moment
fire, fire, then me changed
but that’s not how the journey’s taken
that’s not how this life’s arranged
it’s won in quiet moments walking
long, hard days of brutal climb
in sweet surrender, ever forward
the joy of Your hand holding mine
sorry, Lord, i want the fireworks
when You offer fireflies
i want spectacular every moment
miss the wonder of Your eyes
but even though i’ve got this problem
longing for a day to come
i’m thankful You put it inside
the heart of every daughter, son
this longing to be in Your presence
a thrumming, throbbing for Your face
a need that only will be filled
when we come home and take our place
You made us for You, that’s the truth
that sings and rushes through our veins
and i am thankful for the buzzing
for the reminders and the pains
You are all i long to see because
You formed me in the womb
and one fine day, not too far off
i’ll run to You straight through my tomb
If you haven’t heard about it, you can read more about the “Pascal Moment” to which I refer here. I don’t vouch for the blog itself, but Pascal’s writing about his moment is quoted at length if you scroll down a bit.
Amen!!
This is beautiful Jodi. ❤️